i doubt i'm going to renew it. i mean, i love it and all, and it's not the money issue, either.
i just dont get on da enough anymore for it to be worth a sub.

the good thing is, when i feel it necessary, i can always purchase a sub.

that is all

so, i just got home from my very first real concert, a mudvayne concert (by real concert, i mean one that you buy tickets for and stand in a huge crowd and avoid mosh pits-or find them-and hope a crowd surfer doesn't kick you in the head). Anyway, it was absolutely amazing. i loved every single part of it.
mudvayne is tied with the beatles with my absolute most favorite band EVER! i was so close that i could see the color of their eyes.
ryan, the bassist, threw some water out onto the crowd, and it hit me. that's how close i was. lol
anyway
i also caught the song list that ryan had taped to the floor. they came out at the end of the concert and just started throwing stuff. i also got 7 mudvayne stickers that they threw out (i gave one to my brother and one to his girlfriend, and i'm giving one to my boyfriend tomorrow-so that leaves 4 for me). i also bought a 'the new game' tour shirt, a beanie, the new cd (the new game) and 2 patches (one for me, one for my boyfriend).

i just got finished putting my song list, my patch, 3 of my stickers and my concert ticket into a picture frame.

man. i had a blast. the concert was sold out. the place was packed.
snot and 10 years opened for them. they were pretty good. although they dont compare to mudvayne.

anyway, so i'm freakin excited. i'm so glad i went. i've never sweat that much in my entire life. when i left, my wifebeater and my camo pants were literally soaked. i had to change afterwards because since my clothes were wet, i was freezing cold (well, after i cooled down).

but i had an absolute blast. it was so exhilarating. i can see how people get addicted to concerts. i just prefer to stay away from the mosh pits. i was very very close to them, though. i mean, they actually opened up right next to me, so i got pushed a lot, but i wasnt actually in one.
matter of fact, as soon as mudvayne came out, the entire crowd shifted up and everyone was squished. but it evened back out after the first song.

well, i'm tired as hell, i'm off to bed.
night

My thanksgiving turned out pretty great. I actually had a holiday off (and paid) for the very first time since I've held a job. LOL at the video store, we didn't get paid holidays. Sometimes you got stuck working, sometimes you didn't. Most of the time I did, because it never bothered me that much.

But I had today off.
So I spent yesterday after work with aaron, then this morning before dinner with aaron. then i came home and had a HUGE dinner. i'm so stuffed right now LOL
i had turkey, mashed potatoes, macaroni casserole and rolls. my parents also ate sweet potato casserole, deviled eggs and a few other things that i dont remember...but i dont like stuff like that lol

but it was good.
oh yeah, and the turkey was deep fried. omg heaven.

before dinner, though, i sat down with my baby brother and watched him while my parents finished the turkey. we were watching the jimmy neutron and fairly odd parents movie (i think it's called the jimmy and timmy power hour). it was awesome. those are 2 of my most favorite cartoons, and having them combined was freakin awesome. lol

and then JJ fell asleep in my lap watching it.

it was pretty cool.

oh yeah, and at aaron's house last night we watched the Tin Man mini series (which was the 2nd time i've seen it and it is awesome) and today we watched Over the Top and Demolition man (Stallone movies) and they were both pretty good.
i love sappy movies from the 80s lol
especially the ones that make something as small as arm wrestling seem like a huge national sport lol
...although they probably really do have tournaments like that...but i mean, it's not olympic worthy lol

anyway.
so my thanksgiving was great.

hope yours was, too.

<3

things are a bit better today.

my little brother stood up by himself for the first time today.
he's been walking around while holding on to things for quite a while, but today he was trying to get to my laptop and just let go...and stood there. for like 2 seconds.
so i took him to cybil and showed her. he stood for her for a bit longer.

then we came back and played with my laptop some more and he stood up a few more times.

i think he'll be walking within a week or two. he's already almost there. he doesnt really like it when you help him walk, anymore. he'd much rather just hold onto stuff. and when he gets to the end of something and wants to walk farther, he'll test it for a second before he decides to crawl.
and then he tries over and over again to stand up in the middle of the floor, with nothing to hold on to.

it's so cute.
i can't wait til he starts walking.


also, my grampa is doing a little better.
my grandmother is seriously considering putting him in a nursing home. she's 67 and they live on there own, and she can't really take care of him by herself anymore. and there's really no one in the family that can stay over and help.
me, my brother, moma and my step dad all work first shift, monday through friday. my mom also works on saturday sometimes.
and my other brother is still in highschool.

plus, the nursing home is literally a mile from the house. she could go back and forth as she pleases anytime she wished. so it wouldn't be that big of a difference in time spent together.
she would just have to get used to sleeping in the room by herself.

they've slept in separate beds for quite a few years now, so at least she's not used to having someone in the bed with her. just in the room.
and she's used to waking him up every morning and shaving him and helping him get ready.
but she can still do that at the nursing home, just not right when she wakes up.

but as far as how he is doing, he's eating almost just like he used to.
the nurses can't get him to eat for them, though, so my grandmother has to do it.
which is fine.
they just don't do it right.
he doesnt have any teeth, and he hasnt put in his false teeth pretty much since he's been in the hospital, and they were trying to feed him whole foods.
my grandmother told them to puree the food, and she fed it to him and he ate fine.
i dunno when he's leaving the hospital, though. they still dont know why he had the seizure. they're keeping him to make sure it's not anything serious. i mean, seizures are serious, but they're also kind of common among alzheimer's patients.
i read in a health article that 17% of alzheimer's patients actually develope epilepsy during the late stages. and even more have just a couple of seizures, but it's not considered epilepsy.

anyway, so he's doing better.
but it's still not downhill. but i dont think it ever will be, anymore. it might level out onto solid ground, but i dont think things are ever really gonna go back downhill.
not being cynical or anything, that's just how things go in situations like this.

but anyway. i'm out.
i've only got a couple of hours before i have to go to bed.
it sure is weird being in bed by 11 and being up by 6.
i'm trying to "train" myself to be in bed by 10 and up by 5.
i have my alarm set for 5 every morning, but i usually dont get up til about 5:45. lol
i have to leave the house between 6:45 and 7am (depending on if i'm going to pick up breakfast or if i'm eating at home) to be at work by 8.
oh yeah, and i get my first paycheck tomorrow.
i dont remember if i've already said that...
oh well.
i'm excited.

well i'm out

<3